This entry is from an ancient 1980 paper diary tucked away on our bookself. Rereading it revealed how much has changed, how much I am the same (in spite of growing up) which inspired my typing it into a 21st Century friendly form to share with the world - starting here.

Yes - as long as it's not me or our relationship that's causing him all the deep thought and seemimg pain. That would kill me - shades of Spencer and I last April - the death of another good couple - Spence and I were too much alike. We would never make it anyway. Beside - only Saturday night at Hagar's when I was singing along with the Cars "You're all I got tonight" - And I sang part of it to him he said - (words to the effect) - Fuck that- you've got me for a long time - so the hell with the song. Hmmmm I thought - pretty cool - I hope that's the case 'cause I'm head over heels - And more - I've never been so immersed or in love with one person before. Mod Man.

Today was another practice day. There were more peope out at the farm today - And it was a hot session. I Love them. I Love the high energy sound of the band - I can listen for hours.

Bern doesn't like to listen to music after practice - I can see why. We both fell asleep in front of the T.V. tonight. I was beat - so was he. I went to bed around 10:30 or so - and later on he crewled back to bed also - but around 3:30AM or so we got back up - and Ricky was awake also - and we got stoned. It is wild - I've been smoking pot pretty much since I've been here - but I figure it's my vacation - And I'll reduce when I get back to school. Speaking of getting back to school...